Everyone in the World are Clones
So I’ve decided to start writing a blog to basically whine and gripe on about the world but possibly even promote any sparks of joy I find, all in the hopes that I might discover some people out there in internet land that may agree with me… or not…
…but i guess that’s hypocritical to the point of this first blog!
Today my bull-dyke roommate told me I wasn’t ‘gay enough’ after I mentioned I never ‘fit in’ in any kind of group or community regardless of sexuality, culture or belief system. She then went on to point out after I said I would use my points of indifference to my advantage that I need to camp it up, be more typical, try to blend in…. in an essence, BE the stereotype. Now anyone that knows me well would know that I prance around in makeup and sing show tunes with the best of them… but still, it’s not enough to be accepted in an already segregated society??? What?
So if you’re placed inside a box, and then the people inside that box still make you feel uncomfortable, we need to break out and do our own thing. Now to be true, I’ve been doing this for years and years without my even knowing. This is probably why I find it difficult to make good friends or fall into relationships as the colours I poses just don’t taste exceptionally well. It’s like my niche pallet is congregating on some far distant taste bud, on another tongue, in another mouth, in another galaxy! It seems plausible that this is why on every step of my musical and social journey everyone has always said NO. You CAN’T do this. You WON’T do that. But I’m here to tell you, if you don’t ‘fit in’ then grab your dissimilar flare and FREAKIN RUN WITH IT!
Uniqueness isn’t celebrated anymore, at least for now it remains unpopular. Queens and fairies are despised, even amongst a community already despised. Anything remotely emo is despised, even more so than phags I’ve discovered. Plus gender ambiguity is a huge ‘no no’ unless of course you’ve already shoved it to the masses and placed yourself up on a freak pedestal. However, this is what you must do!
If you are different, unique, weird, quirky, or not fully accepted even in an oppressed, niche and specific sub-culture of intolerance… Use it all do your advantage. Use it to get to that position in life, use it to make people stare at you on public transport and hold your head up high when you’re confronted by your so called community and told you’re ‘just not right’. For this is the flash that’s going to make you explode and shine, I’m sure of it! I’m going to use my flame to score that radio gig, to sell my albums regardless of whether they love or hate me. To find those few special friends who appreciate me regardless of my oddities and to find that one person to whom I stand out to, bright and brilliant, amongst the crowds of clones.